Alright. Here it is. For the last two weeks I have been treating myself right in the gym and then ruining it all in the kitchen. Not every day, but most days I have ended up eating crazy stuff in crazy quantities, usually for NO REASON! Each day I start over, telling myself that I CAN DO THIS and that I am back on track. Inevitably I end up ruining it at some point.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! NO MORE!
I am really frustrated and annoyed with myself. I don't want to be like this. I should be down around 195 right now. Instead I am lingering at 202, having gained a pound for the first time in 17 weeks. Sure, grand scheme a pound is nothing. But right now, in the moment, a pound is a big deal. Gaining one can very easily turn into 2, then 5, then 10 . . . I'm determined to NOT go down THAT road again. Maybe I needed to gain a pound to wake myself up? I don't know but I will tell you this: I AM AWAKE!
Back to journaling everything. I have asked someone I trust to hold me accountable with my journal and review it each week. That helps me. It is a pride thing, really. Knowing someone is going to look at it motivates me to eat right and make it the most beautiful food journal EVER!
I also need more sleep. I have been staying up too late and I am exhausted every day.
I am going to do this! I am going to reach my goals! Not for anyone else, for ME!
Mark my words. Next week I will be 198 and below!
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You can do it Marti, for you. . .for your health. . .for your boys. . .
ReplyDeleteCould you trade out junk for good? For example, if you crave ice cream substitute healthy frozen fruit. Chips sub. air popped pop corn, without butter. Just a thought. Sometimes when I crave something, I snack until I get that "fix". So if I have a little bit of what I am craving, then I can be done with it.
Good luck, keep at it, one day at a time.
Just stopping by to check on you. Hope this finds you well. :) Tami
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