But it Doesn't Matter

In my book, "the Non-Runner's Marathon Trainer", the topic this week is on negative messages. How timely! The author suggests that when you hear yourself giving a negative message in your head (such as my legs hurt, I'm tired, the kids are acting up, I hate doing dishes . . .) to tack on to the end of the statement, "but it doesn't matter." At first I scoffed at the idea. Ridiculous. But then later in the day I was doing my run and feeling sluggish and I told myself, "But it doesn't matter." And by-golly it HELPED! I've used it several times. Who'd have thunk?! I had a great group session with behaviorist Sarah Roth with FWSW. Our meetings usually go 1 1/2 hours tops. We went 2 1/2! It was such a good session. the time just FLEW by. I missed my workout. But it didn't really matter. It was such an eye-opening session, one of the est thus far. The old me would have stressed the rest of the day about not getting that workout in. The new me did NOT. I realize how valuable this time is for me in this process. And I let it go. And I had a really nice day! The kids and I went to lunch with my dad and then we went to Shoaff Park to play. We did the 1.5 mile walk around the golf course. Our family pace is officially ONE MILE AN HOUR, thank you very much! We stopped back at my parent's house for a piece of the cake Charlie made that morning (ooo a BAT!) and headed home. Everyone was in bed by 9:30 and I got to read my magazine for a bit before dozing off. The only snaffoo in the day was that I didn't eat enough. Through the course of the day, everything I ate was a good choice, which makes me feel good. However I didn't eat ENOUGH. So by the time I got home and everyone settled and ate my dinner I had reached that point of hungry where it just nags at you. so I ended up eating way too much. I'm not going to let this derail my efforts. Today is a new day and I'm moving on. But first I want to stop for a moment and learn from it. Most of the day I had had that feeling when I ate. That feeling that says I'm still hungry. Usually, if I wait a bit and drink some water I realize that I am actually full and move on. That didn'thappen yesterday and I just tried to ignore it. It kind of built up and then by the end of the day it was just too much. I was too obsessed about the calories. I knew my caloried for the day were spot on throughout so I tried to convince myself that I wasn't really hungry. Perfect example of me focusing too much on the numbers. So the lesson I'm taking from this is to listen to myself. and if I actually am still hungry, EAT! Don't save it all up for the end of the day and end up eating agiant bowl of Kraft Mac-n-Cheese! Looking forward to the seven miles I GET to run today! I bought a Powerade Max or something for during the run. We'll see if that helps. Ta-Ta-For-Now!